cookies and (ice)cream... with love ♥

It was another great night with him :)

We had our usual overnight together. Aside from our usual movie watching, we did something more fun. No, not that one.. lol.. :D He bought strawberry ice cream and Oreo for midnight snack! üüü

yummy :)

oh yes, he really loved it :)

another perfect moment ♥

And after 465ml of ice cream and 152.4g of Oreo, what else could have happened? We were knocked out. Haha! And we fell asleep as soon as. 

And the next day, I woke up with him in front of me... staring at me. :) Aww... ♥

one Wednesday morning... ♥

We always spend nights together whenever possible, just like last night when we both had our vacation leave from work. :) He brought something for me (well he almost always does ü).

chocolates and a shirt he had made for moi for our 3rd :)

I always try not to sleep even if he's already asleep. I just want to stare at him until my eyes close without me noticing it. I want his face to be the last thing I see before I close my eyes and the first when I open my eyes. I actually had a very bad dream last night. It was a real nightmare. I woke up so scared. I was crying too. Then I turned around and there he was, all ready to comfort me.

"Mahal, stop crying na. I'm here naman e..." and I stopped. 

No matter how dark that dream of mine was, it was easily forgotten knowing that the dream would never happen because he's there to keep me safe and feel better. So we slept again. ü

This morning when we woke up, I had Renee Olstead's A Love That Will Last play on my phone. And while it was playing, we slow danced. ü Aww.. It gave me teary eyes.. =') It felt so right. ♥ After we danced, he never stopped singing the song anymore even if it was his first time to hear it. And he looked so cute while singing. ü


I wore the shirt he gave me then we went to have breakfast. That was actually the first "date" that we had. Haha! We never went out on a date because of reasons that only both of us can understand. That breakfast this morning... man, it was precious. :D I would never have had it any other way. 

It rarely happens so of course, being a camwhore that I naturally am (LOL), I took some photos to keep the precious moments together during that breakfast. Well actually, it was just photos of him mostly (lol..) and here's some. ü

good morning mahal :)

perfect breakfast ♥

He makes me want to have my birthday everyday ♥

My birthday is every 22nd of June. Even a week before that, he already had something for me. It felt so great once again to have someone who can make your special day even more special. :) I loved his effort of making me happy on my birthday. It was like a day I never wanted to end. And even though it's already a couple of weeks past since that special day, I can still feel that genuine happiness I felt on that day. So here comes that day... that I would always want to relieve. More birthdays like this to come! ♥

that 'poem' he made for me ♥

he had me cartoonized :)

Relationships 101 (weh... :P)

Once I loved so much and true. Quoting Popoy from One More Chance, "You had me at my best, but you chose to break my heart." He had me at my best, but he chose to break my heart. To say that he broke my heart would be an understatement. He shattered my life into pieces. It took me a very long time to put my self back together. I thought I was doing the right thing for us just by loving him unconditionally but it turned out that it was not right after all. I made mistakes that made him leave me even if I thought I was being the best for him. Some mistakes I made 5 years ago made me better. Even if we really loved each other so much, or so I thought, I should've not been so selfish and clingy. I'm thinking maybe I choke him too much. Well I think I really did. It's not my fault that I loved too much, but I know now that it was not healthy. I do not regret that I did but somehow it made me realize that loving someone so much doesn't justify everything.

Wanting to be with him all the time because you both knew from the start that he's gonna leave is understandable but it doesn't mean that you should refrain him from living his own life. Being sweet with each other all the time, as if nothing's wrong in the relationship doesn't mean that what you both have is for eternity. Communication is the key and both of you need to be aware of each other's real feelings. Not arguing with each other doesn't mean that everything's going smoothly. At the end you'll realize that there was just the calm before the storm.

I'm not some love or relationship guru but I've seen and felt different sort of things from 5 years ago to today. So now I know the right thing to do. Be more understanding but always think of fairness, show him that you don't wanna lose him but at the same time give him reasons to be afraid to lose you too. Let him have some time for himself. Coz no matter how much we're in love with another person, we're still individuals and we have our own lives to live and enjoy. Agreeing that both of you are in a relationship and that you love each other doesn't give you the right to forbid him from doing other things that make him happy even if they are sometimes not favorable to you. As long as it's reasonable and it's fair, let him have it. If you feel like something's not right, talk to each other and let each other know how bad you feel about it. I'm sure there's an explanation to what happened. Trust him. Whatever his reasons are, those are his. You can't conclude that he's lying just because his reasons do not seem right to you. If he lied, it's not your fault. What goes around, comes around. Do not be a control freak. He has his own mind too you know. He knows what he's doing and he already had enough preaching and manipulation from his mom since he was younger and he doesn't need it from you anymore. If he chose not to tell you his problems, let him be. He will talk when he feels that it's the right time already. He has his own mind and you need to let him feel and know that you respect that. Just always let him know that you're there for him and that he can confide to you anytime. Be his girlfriend/boyfriend, wife/husband, or whatever, but be his friend too. ♥

*After all the pain that you've caused me, I still wanna thank you for hurting me. Now I can be a better person to my love. If you had me at my best, I know I can even be a better best to Caster now:)

[26June2010]

i know it's a cliché but what the heck?! it's what love♥ can do.. *sighs

Despite all the ups and downs of being in love, we still can't resist it. It comes in the mostunexpected, heart-melting situations wherein you just find yourself smiling even with just the thought of reminiscing them. The four-letter word... it can make you feel and do two different emotions and things at the same time respectively. It causes you to accept something that's disgusting about that person you love. It causes you to justify bad deeds for the sake of your loved ones. It causes you to cry when you're supposed to be strong like a bull. You become selfless, forgiving, caring, and understanding. It makes you endure all the pain. It makes you want to live regardless of all the bullshits there are in life. It makes you want to fight even though there's nothing to fight for anymore. You still wanna keep on trying because at the back of your mind, even if you know it's already impossible, you still believe that everything will be okay. It doesn't matter how long you'd fight for it. You can stand it anyway. When you feel like giving up, love's there to keep you moving forward, to keep you hanging on. The first minute you're skeptical, then for the rest of your life, you suddenly become very considerate whether it's reasonable or not. You suddenly believe in anything and everything that's keeping you in love.

The person we become once we're in love, it's just unbelievable. That four-letter word.. it just changes you without you noticing it. Be it for the better or otherwise, it doesn't matter for you. You know that not all love can be forever. But still, you go for it even if you know that it's gonna end anyway someday. As long as you're feeling it, you're assured that you're alive, that you're a human being. And human beings as we are, we keep seeking for it once we felt it. And we don't stop until we find our one true love. The only love that we've been trying to reach at the other end of the line.

For love, and because of love, we keep fighting, we keep enduring, we keep believing, we keep moving, we keep living. ♥

my one true love ♥

[25April2010]

My very own way of saying I love you too :)

Whenever you talk to me
I find it so hard to utter the words that I want to say
You give me a feeling of discomfort
Then a relief when you smile at me

I want you to know that I like you
I like it that you smile at me
I like it that you kissed me
And I simply love the feeling that I have when you're around me

I think of you very so often
Almost all of the time actually
I wanted to fight how I feel for you
But cupid says, "Go ahead and tell him how you feel!"

No one knows if this will be forever
But I know that this is REAL
I'm ready to face all the pain there will be
Just so as long as you'll be there to wipe the tears away

I can't promise that I'll be perfect
And that you will not be disappointed
But I know that you love me
And that love will keep us guided

So now I wanna tell you
How I really feel about and for you
I don't know what's your response gonna be
But all I'm saying is that...

I LOVE YOU TOO =')

[28Feb2010]